i'm just killin time before i have to walk to the other side of campus of my class. i've got like 15 minutes before i have to leave, so i might as well do something productive rather than start my hw that's due tomorrow.

i've been thinking a lot lately about my soul mate. how could i not w/ the worst holiday of the year on friday? anyways so i have all these characterisitics that i want him to have. this is ideally him, though i know that no one can be this perfect, so i'll eventually settle. ok not settle, but like reevaluate when he comes.

my soul mate.....
-is blonde
-is blue-eyed
-is between 6'-6'3"
-is confident, but not cocky
-is athletic
-is intelligent
-is compassionate
-loves children
-would move a mountain for me
-loves to laugh
-loves the beach atmosphere
-likes movies
-is good at giving massages
-is patient
-is a kid at heart
-likes to drive
-is a giver, more than a taker ;)
-looks at me like he can't take his eyes off me
-sings softly to me (at just the right times)
-picks me up when i'm down

that's all i've got right now. i'm sure i'll think of more while i'm sitting in class daydreaming. all those characteristics almost all fit one person. maybe i did let it get away....

so since i'm all about quoting the dictionary lately, i'll continue w/ that. passion is intense emotion: anger; rage; ardent love; zeal; enthusiasm...etc. want is feel a desire for; be without, lack; require; need.

i think there's a huge difference in passion and want, beyond the dictionary definition. so how dumb am i that i knew the word diction meant word choice but didn't realize diction..dictionary...can you say moron? i'm getting all like english in here lately...weird.

anyhow...i don't want much. i want to find my soul mate, have kids, be happy. but i don't have a passion for that. i do have a passion for being a mother though. i have a passion for acting and helping people. i have a passion for curbing other people's eating disorders. i am passionate about sports.

i want to be liked. i want to be wanted or needed. i have a passion for having fun. the most fun week i had in my college career thus far was greek week last year. i loved college and i loved my sorority and my friends and the pikes. nothing could go wrong. so i took on the job of being a greek week delegate b/c i am passionate about fostering the greek community and sharing my passion for that week. it's different with being MVP. i don't have a passion for it whatsoever. i wanted to be on exec though. see the difference?

i want to get good grades. i have a passion for intelligence though. i want to be involved. i can't help it and only you know why i have to be involved. some ppl don't understand or try to and that hurts. ahh that's life and i'm learning.

alas (btw i really love that word) i think i shall do a lil reading before i go to bed. maybe i'll write next time about me as a hypocritical feminist. would ya like that??? :)

You're standing there alone
And so am I
But I want you here
By my side
Ohh
You smiled at me
Is everything thing this staring game

I look you in the eyes
I try to read your thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place

You and me dancing the night away
You can feel my heart beating so hard
We look eye to eye
But I'm swept away

On a moonlit walk on the beach
Watching the sunrise for the first time
While I'm in a trance for that one slow dance

You standing there alone
And so am I
But I want you here by my side
You smiled at me
Is everything the staring game
That song of love

I look you in the eyes
I try to read your thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place

You and me dancing the night away
You can feel my heart beating so hard
We look eye to eye
But I'm swept away

We don't have to talk
We don't have to laugh at all
I just want you here with me
We dont have to talk
We dont have to laugh at all
I just want you here....

You and me dancing the night away
You can feel my heart beating so hard
We look eye to eye
But I'm swept away

After that long walk on the beach
Watching the sunrise for the first time
But I'm in a trance for that one slow dance