do ya ever have those days where like the littlest thing can make you happy? i'm having one of those today. my dad woke me up waaaay early so that i could take my sister's car in to get fixed so my day didn't start out on a positive note, but...i got an email from a friend that i haven't talked to in FOR-EVVVV-VERR! and it just made my day to hear from her.

also i'm in a fairly good mood b/c last night at work we got soooo busy that i had to waitress to some tables and i made sweet cash all night! all the girls i work w/ keep saying how much they're gonna miss me and how they don't want me to leave. that's prolly b/c i do some of their job for them and i don't complain or cause problems. i guess ppl should always leave a job where the ppl are wanting you to stay...otherwise if they can't wait until you get outta there, then there's a definite problem. but even customers have been saying they're sad to see me go...kinda weird...oh well good for the self-esteem

so august 6 is my last day at work. but i'm trying to convince my boss that the 3rd is better. either way i'd still have a week or so to get everything together to go to school. now that summer is almost over, i feel like it flew by when i know that it sure didn't! but either way i have 7-8 more days or work and then i'll get to see ppl that i haven't seen since may 10. that's 3 months....3 months w/o seeing some of your best friends and just sporadic phone calls. tear tear sniffle sniffle

oooh i forgot to mention that my sister got a job. she starts aug 5th in chicago...we're hoping they want her to stay in the city and that she won't drive back and forth everyday. but you know what that means.....

i will have my parents all to myself again for the next 3 years...well when i'm not at school. but all the money my parents spent on her college is twice what they pay for me a year. not to mention that i'm paying for my whole first semester myself! snaps to me!! so now i won't feel bad about asking for money...even tho i'm gonna try to get a job at school, just to pick up a few hours a week, like 10-15, nothing major, just some extra cash that i can save towards living in an apartment next summer instead of coming home and being soooo far away from my friends.

i miss the freedom to come and go and rule the roost on my own terms...even tho my parents have been really lenient. but no curfew is better than 3am!!

when old ppl die, it's sad. like grandparents and old neighbors, it's hard to lose the ppl you love. especially when they're close to you and you face constant reminders everyday of their abscence. it hurts, but that is death that i can accept and grasp and understand. they've lived a full life, seen their children grow up and have their own families.

what i have a hard time realizing is when ppl w/ so much life left are taken away much too soon. it's almost like i refuse to admit that it happened. my mind won't comprehend that. after hearing that a few ppl from morehead were killed this weekend, i immediately had a hard time accepting it. it's not supposed to happen, at least that's what my heart tells me. i knew these kids, had talked to them, but while i didn't hang out w/ them, i still consider them acquaintances.

like when my uncle died last summer at age 45, leaving behind a son and a wife. how's that supposed to happen? he didn't get to see his son graduate college or get married.

the mother of twin boys that i have gone to school w/ since kindergarten was recently diagnosed w/ premature alzheimer's. she's 50. her boys will be starting college in a few weeks, in 4 years she may not even remember who the boys are. she had soo much living left to do, yet it's being taken from her rapidly.

the summer before her sophomore year a volleyball teammate of mine lost her father to a heart attack. she had one brother in college, one brother who was a senior, and one brother who was in 2nd grade. on the verge of marrying her high school sweetheart she has a friend (her maid of honor) over to discuss wedding plans. the friend leaves her house only to accidentally pull out in front of another car and was killed. the girl was 20.

5 kids on their way to a movie are in the car, talking and laughing and having a good time. 2 were wearing seat belts. they were driving fast, too fast and came upon a dangerous curve even at a slow speed. they swerve into the path of another car and 3 of them were thrown from the car, eventually subcumming to injuries and dying. they were all under the age of 19.

life isn't fair. and the Bible says we are not to ask why things happen. we are taught that things happen for a reason and that God will take us all when it is our time. it's hard for me to understand that sometimes it is the right time when ppl are still young. i realize that death is inevitable, but it still doesn't always make sense and that hurts.

ok so katie, jen and i have been coming up w/ all these great memories but we totally forgot some of the classics from this last semester.

*after leaving the buffet, katy talked to the enemy and then katie proceeded to tackle her to the ground. jen and i watched and laughed...nearly peed our pants as they got grass strains on the good jeans and everything. don't forget how it all ended going up the stairs in regents w/ two perfectly timed wet willies. now that's a memory!!!

*what about the time one of us grabbed the wrong tray at the buffet....who could have done that???

*jen remember when that one girl spilled your pasta and no one in line saw it happen but chad mcmillen?

*katie, who has the infamous picture of jen's long lost love that you stole at the bridal store???? hmmmm miss jennifer???

peace, love and cherry vodka....that's my favorite ;)
(b/c we're all troopers ;) !!!)