when old ppl die, it's sad. like grandparents and old neighbors, it's hard to lose the ppl you love. especially when they're close to you and you face constant reminders everyday of their abscence. it hurts, but that is death that i can accept and grasp and understand. they've lived a full life, seen their children grow up and have their own families.

what i have a hard time realizing is when ppl w/ so much life left are taken away much too soon. it's almost like i refuse to admit that it happened. my mind won't comprehend that. after hearing that a few ppl from morehead were killed this weekend, i immediately had a hard time accepting it. it's not supposed to happen, at least that's what my heart tells me. i knew these kids, had talked to them, but while i didn't hang out w/ them, i still consider them acquaintances.

like when my uncle died last summer at age 45, leaving behind a son and a wife. how's that supposed to happen? he didn't get to see his son graduate college or get married.

the mother of twin boys that i have gone to school w/ since kindergarten was recently diagnosed w/ premature alzheimer's. she's 50. her boys will be starting college in a few weeks, in 4 years she may not even remember who the boys are. she had soo much living left to do, yet it's being taken from her rapidly.

the summer before her sophomore year a volleyball teammate of mine lost her father to a heart attack. she had one brother in college, one brother who was a senior, and one brother who was in 2nd grade. on the verge of marrying her high school sweetheart she has a friend (her maid of honor) over to discuss wedding plans. the friend leaves her house only to accidentally pull out in front of another car and was killed. the girl was 20.

5 kids on their way to a movie are in the car, talking and laughing and having a good time. 2 were wearing seat belts. they were driving fast, too fast and came upon a dangerous curve even at a slow speed. they swerve into the path of another car and 3 of them were thrown from the car, eventually subcumming to injuries and dying. they were all under the age of 19.

life isn't fair. and the Bible says we are not to ask why things happen. we are taught that things happen for a reason and that God will take us all when it is our time. it's hard for me to understand that sometimes it is the right time when ppl are still young. i realize that death is inevitable, but it still doesn't always make sense and that hurts.